Part 1
"The proud person seeks to glorify himself and not God, thereby attempting in effect to deprive God of something only He is worthy to receive." - Mahaney
I am terribly proud. I reek of arrogance and haughtiness. A certain story in Mark 10 tells of James and John, Jesus' disciples asking Him, who will sit on His right and left, when He establishes His kingdom.
When I first read this, I thought it was so ridiculous. How could anyone ask Jesus, how they will be glorified through him? as opposed to the other way around.
Yet how often do I do this? I found myself just this evening looking for a good bible verse to share on social media, just to show off my knowledge of scripture, and diligence in reading the word. Here I am wearing the face of James and John. It is no wonder why God hates pride so much. We are openly proclaiming that we are more deserving of glory than Him.
God forgive me for trying to put myself on the same level as you. You are supreme. You are worthy of all the Glory. I have much to be humble about.
Friday, May 10, 2013
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Words
PART 1
With parting words stating, "It is so necessary though" A part of me wanders, was it really so terrible? This is my pride. The roots stretch deep. I know I was expecting her to be the one part of good in my life. My rescue. So I will start there. "God is my refuge, a very present help in time of need." When did I make Rachel my God, when was this okay? How do I remove her as my idol? How do I recenter on God?
PART 2
I have always been proud that I have been mailable, able to change to meet the needs of others. But what happens when someone asks Who I am? Independent of any situation, or people. Apart from the desire to please or impress. Who am I?
PART 3
"Don't try to over-think or over-spiritualize this." the final thing I realize is that I do over think, I don't understand what the over spiritualize part means. So I won't focus on that right now. So part 3 means stripping away the unnecessary thoughts stream steadily throughout the day. How do I simply live here now, without playing over old conversations, or thinking up new situations. I feel like I have manufactured a version of myself to live, while I am thinking up new scenarios. What does it mean to be in this moment, now.
There is probably much more that could be rooted out, but I think this is a good place to start.
With parting words stating, "It is so necessary though" A part of me wanders, was it really so terrible? This is my pride. The roots stretch deep. I know I was expecting her to be the one part of good in my life. My rescue. So I will start there. "God is my refuge, a very present help in time of need." When did I make Rachel my God, when was this okay? How do I remove her as my idol? How do I recenter on God?
PART 2
I have always been proud that I have been mailable, able to change to meet the needs of others. But what happens when someone asks Who I am? Independent of any situation, or people. Apart from the desire to please or impress. Who am I?
PART 3
"Don't try to over-think or over-spiritualize this." the final thing I realize is that I do over think, I don't understand what the over spiritualize part means. So I won't focus on that right now. So part 3 means stripping away the unnecessary thoughts stream steadily throughout the day. How do I simply live here now, without playing over old conversations, or thinking up new situations. I feel like I have manufactured a version of myself to live, while I am thinking up new scenarios. What does it mean to be in this moment, now.
There is probably much more that could be rooted out, but I think this is a good place to start.
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